For the first time, ever, I've achieved that elusive, often discussed state of subspace during a maintenance spanking. On three seperate occasions. If you have ever reached this state, you'll know how pleasant and remarkable it feels. Almost like an out of body experience. If you haven't, the best description I've found for subspace is as follows:
Subspace is a bot of a floating, blissful or trance state created by the action of natural body endorphins. Relaxing... healing... it makes time feel like its gone away, like one is floating outside of their own body. The right combination of sensations (such as after a DEEP cry, for example) can create or sustain it.
I mean... WOW!
The first time it happened, Jim wasn't even aware that something different had occured and I was feeling so "amazed" myself that I couldn't get the words out if I had wanted to... and talking was the last thing I wanted to do at that moment. It lasted for a few minutes and I came out of it on my own.
The second time it happened, Jim had remembered what I had ultimately told him about the first time and stopped spanking to ask me where I was mentally. That dissapated the subspace. I wasn't too happy with him at that moment, after all, there is time for talking and time for silence to allow one's wife to float. He felt it was time for spanking. Since he was currently involved in spanking, his argument won the moment.
The most recent time it happened, Jim was a little slower to realize it again but when he did, he stopeed spanking and asked, "You did NOT just fall asleep or go off into that subspace again, did you? This may not be a punishment spanking but it is discipline and there IS a point to it!" At which point, a couple of spanks on the back of the thighs were sharp enough to end the short journey into subspace right then and I was yanked back to earth!
I've been thinking a lot about this issue and have talked with Jim as well as some DD friends. What I am struggling with, in my own mind, is that after years of maintenace spankings, some harder or softer, some longer or shorter than others, why has this happened three times in a row, now? One answer I can give myself is that during each of these three spankings at least, Jim seemed to "find a rhythm" and kept it steady, which might have created a state of self-hypnosis.
It was a lovely feeling, to feel so relaxed that I wasn't consciously aware of the spanking, to feel like I was floating outside myself up in the clouds... that I want that feeling again. But do I want it as part of a spanking? Is this making me a spanko?
If spanking has always been a part of discipline for me, for us... then how does it change our Domestic Discipline dynamic if I enjoyed this subspace from a spanking so much that I want to achieve it for a longer period a fourth time?
I don't have any answers to my own questions at the time but the concept is intriguing and worth further study.
*Post pulled from my previous RBW blog (version 1.0) until I'm feeling well enough to write something more current and original.